Do you ever wake up with an off, just can't put your finger on it feeling? Well, that was me today. I woke up, rolled out of bed and just felt odd. And then, for whatever reason, I just knew. I don't know how or why, but I knew. All the little clues slowly piecing themselves together. I've been dreadfully and unexplainably tired. I've felt a little queasy. And just all around icky. Pushing through my haze of disbelief, I went to the bathroom to confirm it. And well, as you can see from the below pictures, instincts proved right again. I will be a mother of three very soon. My precious Lord does indeed have a sense of humor. Just when I thought I was getting the hang of this little crazy one..... He goes and throws another one in the mix.Although I've always wanted three.... timing was always a debate. Mark wanted sooner (if we did have 3) because he thinks he's getting too old. And I wanted to wait so I knew Miss. S would be going into kindergarten and I'd only have 2 at home at a time. Well, His timing stepped in and answered that debate with a solid "NOW" answer.
Once I took the test, I went straight to my nearby go-to children's store.... shell shocked.... to get these two shirts. One speeding ticket later (due to my complete out of it state), we headed to Mark's work. To say I'm frightened and shocked just doesn't cover it. To say Mark is even more frightened and shocked just doesn't cover it. It took him a second to get it. He doesn't really notice their clothes all that much, but the oddity of me just showing up at his work (esp on a day when Sailer is usually in school) was a big tip off.
He just looked at me. I gave him the "it's your fault" look (because it was... lol). And he gave me a big hug. Panic setting in. By the end of the day, he'd swallowed it a little bit more than me. I'm still processing. I feel blessed. But I feel a little out of control. World upside down, you know? Life on hold yet again. Isn't that ironic that I'm growing more life, but somehow I think my life is on hold?
I just think my arms are full right now.... I better start stretching because I've got to make room for another one soon. I never knew how much my heart could expand until each of my children were born. Somehow it just keeps doubling, tripling (I sort of feel like the grinch whose heart grew 3x bigger).... because that's what it'll be come June 1st.
So welcome sweet baby james #3..... you're entering one crazy, never-know-what-your-going-to-get family with a sometimes type-A, sometimes fly-by-the-seat-of-her-pants mama (and sadly, you rarely know which one you're gonna get). The only things you can count on is constant love. A lot of laughs. And more hugs and kisses than you can even ask for.

1 comment:

Brandi said...

Awwww, so cute!!! Congratulations!! Having 3 is sooo crazy but soooo much fun!!!! You will love it!!!